Yep, that’s right, the episodes are back again. Fierce as ever.
It all started this morning. I was craving pancakes and noticed that my roommate allowed one of her friends to finish off my maple syrup (I know it wasn’t her being that she doesn’t eat syrup). I totally flipped out, called a friend and bashed her for 2 hours as she listened on in the next room.
I finally got over it (by making muffins), and went about the rest of my day, lazy and relaxed as ever. As night drew, I went to a friend’s going away party, and ran to the grocery store on the way back. Being that I was with a friend, we were talking about something and out of the blue I got irritable and started bitching about everything.
Okay, so at least the rants were laughable due to the comedic timing of those surrounding me (since they’re used to it). But the fact that its only day 15 of me being back on the birth control shows that I may not be able to handle myself while on hormone therapy.
You see, before the Birth Control kicked in, I was happy. Like really happy. So happy that there was nothing that could stop me. Granted, I had my one big episode, but it spawned from loads of bad news, and a few bad situations piled up. Now, everything is at a good pace, I’m in a good place, and I’m starting to get PMS-irritable for no apparent reason (one of the two types of my episodes).
At this point, I’m torn. So the question is: do I continue to suffer from emotional turmoil due to the birth control, or do I allow myself to continue to be in physical pain (I mean keel over serious pain) without it? I would love to hear your opinions and possible solutions, if you have any ideas on it.
