I haven’t written on here in a while. Pretty much since my last really bad episode which lasted for two months. I’ve been in and out of a severely depressive state, with no irritability in sight. It’s been tough. Which meant I had to do something drastic.
After my lease ran up, I quit my job, bid adieu to friends, and moved. Just left the state. Granted, I’m crashing with a relative until I get on my feet, but pretty much I’m in a new city, where I have no history with. No old friends, no bad experiences, nothing. And so far, everything is feeling a little better. People are nice and understanding. The weather always seems to be sunny. There’s no sign of a recession anywhere. I’m just glad to be away. Away from everything that was eating me alive like acid on flesh. I am glad to be away from the depressing sights of the aftermath of an economic slump. No more seeing hard working people suffer from poverty and joblessness. No more seeing friends and neighbors on public assistance, formerly those of middle class society. No more uncaring politicians who care more about recognition then their own hometowns.
I’m in a better place now; a metaphorical death. Granted, I wanted to kill myself, and I tried, not before I was restrained by a good friend. So at least there isn’t as much suffering, although I do feel a bit lonely here with nobody that I really know. Hopefully that will change soon.
But thanks to everybody that was concerned about me. Its hard to find people that care about complete strangers, yet my readers are such people (which makes me a lucky blogger). I hope all is well in everybody’s world, and of course, know that if any of you need someone to talk to, do not hesitate to message me.
Peace and Blessings!
